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13 August 2006 @ 12:17 pm
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Title: Coming and Going
Author: Kirstie
Pairing/Character: Logan. Veronica.
Word Count: eek, um....not alot?
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Graduation Day at Neptune. Logan. Veronica.
Spoilers/Warnings: If you've seen the episodes that have aired, you're good.



It was the end. The end of high school. The end of an era. The end of the "best years of our life". The end of Veronica's worst. The end of the beginning.

The beginning of the rest of their lives.

But all Veronica wanted to do was get out of the rain.

Clemmons and the rest of the senior class had the great idea of having the graduation ceremony outside.

But then again, it was June and storms were always coming and going.

And then half way through the ceremony, the clouds rolled in and the winds started to blow and the rain was about to come.

Many people's hats had already got blown off their heads and were blowing down the football field. Many people were trying to keep their robes from flying up. Many people were trying to keep the projector screen from blowing up. Many people didn't give a shit.

Because storms were always coming and going. And all you could do is wait them out.

The rain started to fall and everyone ran frantically as it fell. It was hard and demanding.

Veronica didn't notice,

Or she didn't care.

She wasn't sure of which. She wasn't sure what compelled her to walk in the opposite direction of everyone else was either. But she did.

It must be in her nature.

Or she just truly didn't care anymore.

She hoped it was the first but admitted to herself that it was probably the second.

She walked to the middle of the football field and just let the rain soak her through to the bone. She let it wash Logan Lilly Duncan Meg pain life love hate herself everything away.

She looked to the sky for something. She wasn't sure of what but she hoped it came soon.

Thinking about everyone and everything, Veronica began to laugh. Laugh at what her life became throughout these past three years. She just gave in and laughed.

Then just as sudden as the laughter had come, the tears followed.

Veronica broke and the laughs turned to choked back sobs.

And in that moment, she was sure she finally lost it.

She couldn't stop the sobs so she relented and let them take over her body.

She fell to her knees and made a splash as she landed in the mud.

She sat there for a good five minutes, just letting everything out; then she heard a voice yell her name.

"Veronica!" She turned to the voice and all she could see was a blur running towards her thanks to the tears rain.

Even before she could confirm it, she knew it was him.

As he reached her, she turned her head to wipe the tears away before standing and turning towards him.

Logan looked at her with what looked like amusement, "What the hell are you doing?"
When he finally was face to face, she hoped he would confuse her tears for the rain.

Of course he didn't because that's what he does. He notices.

His look went from amusement to concern in an instant and wiped away a tear with the pad of his thumb before he realized he did it.

He was taken back by his lack of self control. For a second he forgot he was suppose to hate her. Forgot that they weren't allowed shouldn't get anymore than three feet of each other. Forgot that she wasn't his.

He hastily removed his hand and shoved it in his pocket.

He looked away and slowly returned his gaze to her eyes.

He asked his previous question again, "What are you doing?"

Her mind searched for a sane reasonable answer. She came up blank. She shrugged hopelessly and her voice broke replying, "I don't know."

Logan laughed softly. Sadly.

Her face crumbled and she choked out, "I don't know."

And she began to cry again.

Logan was at a loss. Veronica Mars didn't cry. He didn't know how to deal with it.
He gave in and pulled her, almost harshly, to him. She buried her head in his chest as he placed his arms around her. They stayed like that for a couple minutes until Logan pulled her back to look at her.

He pushed a clump of wet hair that was stuck to her face, away.

Veronica refused to look up at him but he placed his finger under her chin, forcing her to.

Her eyes glazed with tears and his heart almost broke. He could deal with bitter Veronica, angry Veronica, even sad Veronica. But not the Veronica that looks like she has no hope left.

"They should be here," she said quietly.

"Who?" Logan asked even though he knew.

"Lilly, Meg, Duncan, Felix, every single person at the god damn bus. They should be here."

Logan just nodded, not knowing what to say.

Veronica stepped away from him and wiped away her tears. "I'm sorry."

He weakly smiled. "It's okay. You just have to let it out sometimes. You can't keep it all in forever."

"It makes it easier sometimes though."

He shook his head. "No, it really isn't."

Veronica just shrugged and looked away, wrapping herself in her arms. She can't believe she just broke down. In front of Logan of all people.

"Well, I-uh, I better go." She said, lamely as she started to walk away.

"No."

Veronica stopped at the sound of his voice and turned back around. "What?"

"No. You don't get to do it again, Veronica. You're not gonna just walk away again. You can't just run away from everything. From me."

Veronica shook her head, "That's not what I'm doing."

"The hell you aren't! You're running away just like you always do. It's you default setting."

"Fine!" Veronica grew angry. "I'm here. Right now. What do you want to say? Get it off your chest and then I'm gone. I'm not gonna stick in Neptune any longer than I have to. I'm leaving tomorrow and heading up to Boston. You'll never see me again, so just get it off your chest!"

Logan was taken back. She was leaving him town. His first thought was to say something that would make her stay. But she was Veronica Mars. She would never stay.

So he gave up. He just store at her, not able to say anything. Because Veronica storms are always coming and going. And sometimes you can't outrun them and they take everything away.

Logan dejectedly shrugged. "Nevermind. Just do it, Veronica. Walk away."

She hesitated but only for a second. And then she turned and walked away from him.

She walked and walked and walked.

He watched.

"I love you." He said after her.

He wondered if she heard.

She did.

She kept walking.